Have been enjoying my holidays. Days are great with awesome friends around. Sometimes I feel that I am slowly losing my motivation towards studies. I know it's not a wrong choice to choose jc, it's perfectly a right choice for me. However, why am I feel so restless and unmotivated? Feel so aimlessly in life. For 2012, god please guide me and show me what I really want to achieve in my life. Bye.

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I am really scared. I don't want to be judged by others. I really tried my best. But I am afraid of disapointment.

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promos had ended. i have tried my best. retain or not, it dosen't really matter anymore.

Utterly disappointed in myself. Fuck. I really want to do well in history. I screw up. God bless. I need to promote, really.

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Tomorrow is history paper!!! =[ damn scared :/ it's alright, I shall try my best! :D

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Promo has officially started. GP was terribly done especially for the comprehension. I swear that I have studied damn hard for Gp. I read up all my reading packages. I did a lot of comprehension. Because I am at my wits end. :/ anyway history paper 1 at Friday!! Hais gonna study real hard. Had been playing for all these while! Doubt anyone will be seeing my blog! Yayy!! Shall be my private space now! ((((:

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School is pretty fun. But promo is getting nearer. i want to promote. i don't wanna retain. :/

btw, i don't wanna get involved into these stupid and redundant things again. i am willing to choose to give up on it, so why can't you do the same way as i do? started off badly, ended off badly too. dosen't life experiences had taught you that??

 Life is alright,I guess. At least it was way much better than July. My recent test has proved to me that I can actually do well. I did not do that well but at least I managed to clear my rankpoints. Perhaps, that's a good start for my promo. However, I think that I will most probably retain. Trying to be positive, but I doubt that i can pass through this ordeal. Anyway, I have recently participating in jss's mentorship programme. Well, it was indeed a memorable experience. I can't believe that I was being deemed as the English oral goddness. I was shocked too. Of course, I have met some new friends too. Ohya, going back to jss at teacher's day is (Y). Yeah managed to talk to miss tan, miss tang and miss Ng. Oh well, Mdm Priya was on mc. What a pity. :( have a great catch up with my secondary school friends. (:


i am currently losing all my hopes now. i do not want to retain. i do not want to lose this battle. i am afraid of disrimination. i am afraid of humilation. who dosen't? i really want to do well. i did not want to bear the consequences of wasting another year in jc life. i got to work hard for once. hope everything will turn out fine.

I do not know what to feel right now. I'm sick of life.